Ms. Communication

If you're an old follower of my blog you'll notice the change but if you're new you'll have no idea what I'm talking about. My blog used to be called "Beautiful Dreamer" but God put it on my heart that it's time for an upgrade.

In Exodus God calls Moses to lead His people out of Egypt but Moses says the equivalent of "You want... me? But why? I'm horrible with crowds, I stutter, my people hate me! Even if I were to speak they wouldn't believe me; they'd say I'm crazy!" God tells him that He's the one who made the mouth and He has to power to put words in it. He's in control! Sometimes though I feel like Moses. God's called me into ministry but sometimes I get scared and say the same thing. "You want... me God? But why? I'm horrible with crowds, I stutter, I have absolutely no charisma! Even if I were to speak people wouldn't believe me; they'd say I'm crazy!" But God tells me He made my mouth and He has the power to put words in it. He is in control!


You've probably figured out by now that the new blog title has a double meaning. The first is Ms. Communication. It is my calling to communicate, teach, preach, talk about God's Love, Mercy, Justice, and Personality. The second meaning is miscommunication because I know I mess up God's message all the time.

Last week I had an epiphany that started this whole thing. I was chatting with a friend on facebook (I still have mixed feeling about that site) and my Internet connection kept breaking down. As a result, I would message my friend again and again but see no answer and at some point I felt rather depressed because I thought my friend was ignoring me. Later I went to check my message inbox and saw that my friend had been answering me the whole time and the only reason I couldn't see that was because of my bad Internet connection. My epiphany was: how many times does this happen to us and God? We pray to him and pray to him when we don't immediately see an answer - our problems don't immediately go away - we feel as though God is ignoring us or even abandoned us. What we don't see is that God has been answering us the whole time and the only reason we don't see that is because of our "bad connection".

Jeremiah 29: 11-14a says, "'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,'".


Let's pray...

God, I'm sorry for believing Satan's lie that You don't love me anymore. I believe now more than ever that Your thoughts are higher than my thoughts, and Your ways are so much higher than my ways. I believe You love me so much that even though I'm a sinner You sent Your son Jesus to die for me. Lord, help my unbelief. Amen.